I’m Officially​ in my 20’s – And I Feel Like A Fraud​.

Being in your 20’s is a weird time. I feel like there is a lot of pressure to be successful and have fun. You HAVE to do both. Everyone’s best time of their lives is in their 20’s right? But what if I don’t go out? Or don’t get that killer internship? Am I still crushing my 20’s or am I falling behind?

I know how to do more than the average college students, I think. Like how to stay uber-organized, little tidbits about everyday life (such as laundry) I get asked about daily. I share advice and my life on the internet. I seem to have it all together right?

Wrong. I have never been to any bar around campus. I can remember the last time I accepted an invitation to a party or stayed out later than like 1a.m. I have a very small friend group (who I love dearly) but I feel like I can’t keep up with what is expected of a 20-year-old.

The thing is, I don’t really like partying. I’m ok with one every once in a while but I’d rather have Harry Potter marathons or go to Disney for the night. Does that make me wrong?

I spend too much time writing in my bullet journal or planning out my life for the next two weeks. I’ll decline dinner dates with friends because I want to be my goal weight before 21. Am I thinking too much about the future to experience the now? Am I missing out? Will I regret not doing more for me? My grades are good but I don’t have polaroids of crazy nights I’ll remember forever.

I think there has to be a balance, for me. I can study all weekdays and do more on the weekends. The answer I have come to is: I’m doing just fine. You’re doing just fine. Whatever path you’re on, you’re on the right one. To stay sane and excel, I think I need to believe that everything I am doing right now will lead me to the best version of me in the future.

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